Someday

 Someday you're gonna realize

One day you'll see this through my eyes
By then I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere even if I cared

I know you don't really see my worth
You think you're the last guy on earth
Well I've got news for you
I know that I'm not that strong
But it won't take long, won't take long

Cause, someday someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see I won't even miss you
Someday, someday

Right now I know you can't tell
I'm down and I'm not doing well
But one day these tears, they will all run dry
I won't have to cry sweet goodbye

Cause, someday someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone's gonna take your place
Oh, one day I'll forget about you
You'll see I won't even miss you
Someday, I know someone's gonna be there

Someday someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see I won't even miss you
Someday, someday

finally I'm 20 ._.

I'm 20th now. First step into the real world. Am I ready? I don't think so, but I'll try my best to be someone better than before. I said to myself one thing, I should to be better than last year, especially more mature in behavior and thoughts. 

My first thank you for You, who always give me life until today, who never leave me alone in every situations, who always beside me. You're my greatest Father that I ever have. My second thank you is for my parents and my big family, who always take care about me, who always be my "recycle bin" when I'm in trouble, who always support me in every conditions. My third thank you is for my biatchs, Sagitha, Jeshor & Rima, thanks for your special wishes every year about find my prince charming, may it comes true in this year.. Amen! For my best friends in collage, thanks guys for the wishes, thanks for the small surprise, for the "someone" who sing birthday song in public for the first time.. So memorable! And to all my friends that I can't write here one by one, thank you guys!!

when helping friends is a part of happiness

All this photos taken by Tasia at studio in P building of Petra Christian University. I helped for her assignment on Visual Communication Design.

Make up & costume by Me

I Miss My New Family

remember when we first met, everything felt awkward. we built our teamwork with completed every outbond games. at the first week in Kajar, everything seems so long, so flat, so bored and so hard. until we trip to Solo with economic train wihout air conditioner and culinary traditional Solo foods. and times goes so fast, last day at Kajar was came. we made International Food Festival for our family there, we shopping and cooked together. for the last night we made BBQ party at headquarter. and the day we must separated with our family came, tears dropped, all people cried. we back to Surabaya with mixed feelings, happy 'cos we can meet our true family again but sad 'cos we'll be miss all Kajar family and the fact that we realize that we as a new family will separate without knowing when we can meet again. THE DAY when closing COP came, everything felt so different with opening COP, even closing was more simple than opening but all people looked so close as one big family. I always remember the time that we're in airport. that's my first time all day in airport with tears that doesn't stopped. even said see you soon was so hurts. and now it's already one month we haven't met. I really really miss Kajar, I miss all Kajar members, I miss my Kajar family, I miss my mom food, I miss my simple bedroom & my big bathroom. I miss our quality time we spent together, when we practiced our closing dance and song, when we chit chat in the afternoon, our jokes, when we did our projects together.

ahhh.. I miss like crazy everything about Kajar !!!

Temporary home

Little boy, 6 years old
A little too used to bein' alone.
Another new mom and dad,another school,
Another house that'll never be home.
When people ask him how he likes this place...
He looks up and says, with a smile upon his face,

"This is my temporary home
It's not where I belong.
Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through.
This is just a stop, on the way to where I'm going.
I'm not afraid because I know this is my
Temporary Home."

Young mom on her own.
She needs a little help, got nowhere to go.
She's lookin' for a job, lookin' for a way out,
Because a half-way house will never be a home.
At night she whispers to her baby girl,
"Someday we'll find our place here in this world."

"This is our temporary home.
It's not where we belong.
Windows and rooms that we're passin' through.
This is just a stop, on the way to where we're going.
I'm not afraid because I know this is our
Temporary Home."

Old man, hospital bed,
The room is filled with people he loves.
And he whispers don't cry for me,
I'll see you all someday.
He looks up and says, "I can see God's face."

"This is my temporary Home
It's not where I belong.
Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through.
This was just a stop,on the way to where I'm going.
I'm not afraid because I know... this was
My temporary home."

I’m gonna love you through it

She dropped the phone and burst into tears
The doctor just confirmed her fears
Her husband held it in and held her tight
Cancer don’t discriminate or care if you’re just 38
With three kids who need you in their lives
He said, "I know that you’re afraid and I am, too
But you’ll never be alone, I promise you"

When you’re weak, I’ll be strong
When you let go, I’ll hold on
When you need to cry, I swear that I’ll be there to dry your eyes
When you feel lost and scared to death,
Like you can’t take one more step
Just take my hand, together we can do it
I’m gonna love you through it.

She made it through the surgery fine
They said they caught it just in time
But they had to take more than they planned
Now it's forced smiles and baggy shirts
To hide what the cancer took from her
But she just wants to feel like a woman again
She said, "I don't think I can do this anymore"
He took her in his arms and said "That's what my love is for"

When you’re weak, I’ll be strong
When you let go, I’ll hold on
When you need to cry, I swear that I’ll be there to dry your eyes
When you feel lost and scared to death,
Like you can’t take one more step
Just take my hand, together we can do it
I’m gonna love you through it.

And when this road gets too long
I'll be the rock you lean on
Just take my hand, together we can do it
I’m gonna love you through it.
I’m gonna love you through it.

Marry Your Daughter

Sir, I'm a bit nervous 

'Bout being here today  

Still not real sure what 

I'm going to say  

So bare with me please 

If I take up too much of your time,  

See in this box is a ring for your oldest 

She's my everything and all that I know is  

It would be such a relief if 

I knew that we were on the same side  

Very soon I'm hoping that I...

 
Can marry your daughter  

And make her my wife 

I want her to be the only girl that

 I love for the rest of my life  

And give her the best of me 'till the day that I die, yeah 

I'm gonna marry your princess  

And make her my queen  

She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen 

 Can't wait to smile  

When she walks down the isle  

On the arm of her father  

On the day that I marry your daughter  

She's been hearing for steps 

Since the day that we met (I'm scared to death to think of what would happen if she ever left) 

So don't you ever worry about me ever treating her bad 

 I've got most of my vows done so far (So bring on the better or worse) 

And tell death do us part  

There's no doubt in my mind 

It's time  

I'm ready to start 

I swear to you with all of my heart...

 
I'm gonna marry your daughter  

And make her my wife 

I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life 

And give her the best of me 'till the day that I die, yeah 

 I'm gonna marry your princess  

And make her my queen  

She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen 

I can't wait to smile  

As she walks down the isle  

On the arm of her father 

On the day that I marry your daughter

 
The first time I saw her 

 I swear I knew that I say I do 

 I'm gonna marry your daughter  

And make her my wife 

 I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life  

And give her the best of me 'till the day that I die 

 I'm gonna marry your princess  

And make her my queen  

She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen 

 I can't wait to smile  

As she walks down the isle 

On the arm of her father  

On the day that I marry your daughter