Perfect

i nearly lost my mind
tryna figure out a way
to make you understand
i can't go on another day
baby i was wrong
been confused and let astray
please give me one chance
cos i can't take what's happening

have you ever lost someone (yeah)
tried to take them back
but the damage is done
thought of losing you
makes me feel so sad
how am i gonna sleep
when it feels this bad
i know enough is enough
it's going to be tough to get through this

i'll never be perfect
i'll never be cool
i'll always be nothing
unless i'm with you
cos you make me perfect
tell me what can i do
the pieces are missing
when i'm not with you
you make me

i know that i deserve it
but have you really lost all faith
you know inside that we're worth it
there's so much left for us to say
baby i was lost
or maybe i was just afraid
could you please forgive me
and hold me in your arms again

have you ever lost someone (yeah)
tried to take them back
but the damage is done (oh yeah)
thought of losing you
makes me feel so sad
how am i gonna sleep
when it feels this bad
i know enough is enough
it's going to be tough to get through this

i'll never be perfect
i'll never be cool
i'll always be nothing
unless i'm with you (unless i'm with you)
cos you make me perfect
tell me what can i do (oh yeah)
the pieces are missing
when i'm not with you
you make me

don't say nothing's perfect
cos it isn't true
everything i need is here with you
everything i see so clear with you
everything i dream appears with you
every single pieces
damn..
perfect ooh yeah yeah

i'll never be perfect (perfect)
i'll never be cool (no)
i'll always be nothing
unless i'm with you
cos you make me perfect
tell me what can i do (what can i do baby)
the pieces are missing (oh)
when i'm not with you
cos you make me whole
you make me
so whole
you make me
when i'm with you baby
oh yeah
you make me
so whole
eh yeah
you make me
oh yeah

you make me perfect

SHOULD I OPEN MY HEART ?

"SHOULD I OPEN MY HEART??? I need someone who won't give up on me, no matter how hard I try to push them away !!!"

friend = BULLSHIT !!

"aku cukup lelah berada diantara orang-orang munafik disekeliling ku. Berpura-pura baik dan tulus didepanku, seolah-olah melakukan semuanya demi kebaikanku. perbedaan antara orang bodoh dan orang baik terlalu tipis, membuatku berkali-kali terjebak dan lagi-lagi harus sakit hati. aku terlalu bodoh untuk sedikit berbuat lebih tegas! aku capek berada di antara mereka, semua yang aku anggap teman yang baik ternyata busuk! dari sekian banyak teman yang aku punya hanya beberapa yang mampu menunjukkan arti seorang teman yang sesungguhnya.. terlalu banyak orang jahat didunia ini, lebih tepatnya mereka yang MUNAFIK !!!!"

Rumah Singgah Bocah Penderita Kanker

Rabu, 25 Mei 2011 | 00:26 WIB

Agnes Khurniawan Kho
Mahasiswi Ilmu Komunikasi Universitas Kristen Petra
anyesskho@yahoo.com


Gerakan 2000 yang merupakan program di bawah Himpunan Mahasiswa Ilmu Komunikasi (Himakomtra) saya dan beberapa teman panitia dari jurusan Ilmu Komunikasi Universitas Kristen Petra datang berbagi membantu mereka yang kurang mampu, khususnya bocah penderita kanker di rumah singgah di Jalan Prof Moestopo. Gerakan 2000 memang bukan program yang besar. Hanya sebuah kepedulian di mana pada 10-12 Mei 2011 silam kami berkeliling kampus meminta uluran tangan mahasiswa UK Petra yang peduli uang Rp 2000 dari uang jajan mereka. Di luar dugaan ternyata warga UK Petra benar-benar peduli dan berpartisipasi baik dengan Gerakan 2000 ini. Tiga hari kami menggumpulkan dana dan baru pada 14 Mei 2011 kami ke RSU Dr Soetomo tempat para bocah pengidap kanker ini dirawat. Kami, juga menghibur mereka dengan acara kecil seperti drama yang dibantu teman-teman dari teater UK Petra, lomba mewarnai, dan bernyanyi bersama.

Anak-anak penderita kanker ini dirawat di RSU Dr Soetomo di bangsal anak. Ada beberapa dari mereka yang harus tidur di ranjang darurat demi mendapat perawatan rumah sakit. Udara di dalam bangsal begitu penggap dengan satu atau dua buah kipas angin kecil di setiap bangsal yang dihuni 12 anak plus orangtua dan beberapa sanak kerabat. Sungguh terasa sesak. Seharusnya ada perhatian lebih kepada mereka. Benar mereka mendapat pengobatan secara gratis namun bukan berarti mereka tidak layak mendapat fasilitas memadai. Paling tidak kamar mereka dilengkapi ventilasi cukup untuk pertukaran udara di dalam ruangan. Bukankah udara yang penggap dan kotor akan berdampak tidak baik untuk kesehatan mereka?
Ini semua mereka jalani karena memang tak ada jalan lain untuk menyelamatkan anak-anak mereka dengan keterbatasan biaya. Jamkesmas dari pemerintah pun tak mudah diperoleh. Padahal jamkesmas dibuat dengan tujuan membantu warga yang kurang mampu. Untung pihak RSU Dr Soetomo membantu mereka mengurus semuanya sehingga dapat sedikit meringankan beban mereka.

Kedatangan kami disambut sangat baik sekali oleh para dokter yang menangani bocah pendeita kanker, kendati saat acara dimulai ada beberapa orangtua pasien yang kurang respek. Seiring berjalannya acara, melihat niat kami untuk menghibur, mereka mulai ikut tersenyum bahkan tertawa bersama anak-anak mereka. Tentu saja, kami begitu terharu melihat perubahan wajah setiap anak yang berada di situ. Wajah-wajah murung mereka berubah menjadi begitu semangat dan ceria, tawa dan celotehan polos mereka terdengar. Terima kasih Tuhan kehadiran kami, juga kepedulian keluarga ebsar UK Petra dapat membuat mereka tertawa walau mungkin hanya beberapa saat. Rasa lelah kami mengelilingi kampus UK Petra yang lumayan besar selama tiga, mengumbar senyum dan ucapan terima kasih pada setiap warga UK Petra yang mau peduli juga terkadang mendapat penolakan dari beberapa orang sambil membawa-bawa kotak sumbangan akhirnya terbayar ketika sampai di rumah sakit dan melihat kondisi mereka.

Baru terasa kalau waktu dan tenaga yang kami sediakan untuk program ini begitu berarti untuk mereka. Senyum dan tawa mereka membayar rasa lelah, waktu, dan tenaga yang telah kami kerahkan selama ini. Terima kasih untuk kalian semua yang sudah mau peduli dengan kelangsungan adik-adik kita dengan bersedia berbagi walau hanya menyumbang Rp 2000 bahkan yang kurang atau pun yang telah menyumbang lebih. Tulus atau pun tidak uluran tangan kalian, hanya Tuhan yang akan membalas semua itu. Dan juga untuk RSU Dr Soetomo, Ibu Tuti juga Ibu Ida yang membantu mengoordinasikan dan menemani kami selama acara berlangsung, terima kasih.

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smiling eyes

If not for the mirror,
Unlike you who don t keep secrets,
I still don't believe
Without you, my smile is more beautiful.
That day I heard you over the phone, with your sorry gentleness
I hung up with a beep better than you broke up with me
I washed tear sodden clothes and dried my memories in the sun
Folded up sadness, tomorrow I'm only going out with Happiness
The Love City may be crowded
If I really meet you
Don't be surprised. She can't replace my smile
Leaving you only leads me on to discovering my own
Smiling eyes
Crying,
It's like being under a thunderstorm
Delete the wet tomorrow
Leaving you lets me find my
Smiling eyes
Bye-bye love,
I'll let myself
Let myself decide

That cried
Take it that I watched an old movie alone
It's just me being careless.
Leaving you lets me find my
Smiling eyes
Meeting you again,
I will let myself, let myself, be strong

Meeting you again,
I would put on a strong front

A Song For Mama

“A Song For Mama”

By : Boyz II Men

You taught me everything
And everything you've given me
I'll always keep it inside
You're the driving force in my life, yeah
There isn't anything
Or anyone that I can be
And it just wouldn't feel right
If I didn't have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there
To comfort me
And no one else can be
What you have been to me
You'll always be
You will always be the girl
In my life for all times


Chorus:
Mama
Mama you know I love you
(Oh you know I love you)
Mama
Mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama I just want you to know
Lovin' you is like food to my soul


(yes it is, yes it is,ohhhhh
You're always there for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
(Yes you did)
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin' me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There were so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And saaaayyyyy,
I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You'll always be
You will always be
The girl in my life
(oooo, oohh)


Chorus

Never gonna go a day without you
Fill's me up just thinking about you
I'll never go a day
Without my mama


Chorus

***

Since, I was in Junior high school I stayed away from my parents. So far has been about 8 years. When I was 12 years old. At that time, I was too young to stayed away from my my parents. The first time when I left alone, I just stayed in my bedroom and cried for a long time. At that time I feel if I was hanging out with my parents, I couldn’t live away from them. Especially, my mom!

Through the song “A Song For Mama” I realized that the role of mother in every children life is really meaningful. As I feel at the moment when I was away from my mother, maybe we really separate the distance and time, but her attention always there as if she is on my side. Comfort me, make me like there is the middle of my little family. When I’m tired, stressed, and frustrated with all my assignment, my mom always beside me. Support me. Convince me that I pass all my problem. My mom really the queen of my heart. She is my best hero that I ever had. From my mom I learned many things, learned to love sincerely, learned to be brave and strong in this life.

Through the song, I wanna say “Mama, you know I love you and you know that I never disappointed you. Mama, you everything in my life and you will always be the best hero in my life. I love you mom!”

MY HARDEST PART

"I know if the beginning is always the hardest. But is really killing me!! I'm depression of this assignment!! Really need more sleep, holiday, time to relax my mind..."